Dear God, I'm grateful for your existence into my life, forever and always. There is not a day I am not without thought of your grace and power that have an overall influence in my daily life forever and always. I pray for all the people of this world that you created, I pray for their well being and pray for their existence. Every human being under you was created for a reason and although that reason isn't clear yet, I am for sure the reasons are worth them being reasons for each and every individual. Even I question my existence at times, my purpose in this life, but I know and trust in your decisions. Every move I make and every thought I have, I know that you already know them before I even do them. So whatever you have in plan for me I will accept them willingly for I know it is your will that I should do so. God I pray that what I hope and ask for will be given to me soon. I know very well you work in mysterious ways and although I am not exactly in a rush I am however ...
29.06.17 These days a lot of things have decided to plague my developing mind, I guess you could say I'm undergoing one of those developmental theories that was discussed in one of those lectures on LDC. What was it called "Identity vs Role Confusion?" I guess it can't be helped I'm a growing child, your child. Your child whom doesn't understand the emotions that are being felt each and everyday, questioning whether its through the production of hormones or something else, either way my mind fills up with too many thoughts of "if's"and "wishes" that some things should have been. I ask the to help clear my mind and stop being a person who is constantly influenced by those around me. I wish only to be the person I once was, an individual whom acted willing without the influence of others. Help me to be the independent person I want to be, not only for myself but those important to me; my family. I threw my dreams away for them to please ...